Frustrating

I created this blog about a week or so ago...and I want to be more active in it...maybe puddle through my thoughts and create a common theme, but I can't dedicate the time to do so. As I speak my 9 month old is crawling behind me getting into something and I will need to deal with that. Then I have to get her ready and put her to bed...which is a "yay" time for me, but the home computer is in her room and Jose took the laptop with him to Virginia...so UGGGGG!!!!!

I can't decide

I have about 2 dozen books I just bought for myself and I can't decide which one to start next. Just finished "Dead as a Doornail" by Charlaine Harris...it's book #5 of the Sookie Stackhouse novels and the series which the HBO show "True Blood" is based from. There are 10 in the series (and 11th one is coming in May I believe) but I have a box set of 8...anyway, I've been breaking them up so I don't get burned out from it...plus books 3 and 4 didn't do much for me...so I read "The Road" by Cormac McCarthy and "Olive Kitteridge" by Elizabeth Strout in between and I loved both books. Little heavier then "Sookie Stackhouse" but that made me appreciate these and the sookie stackhouse books more...anyway...I can't decide if I want to continue onto book 6, or if I want to read maybe "Push" a novel by Sapphire, "The Time Traverlers Wife", "Running with Scissors", "Alice in Wonderland and Through the Looking, "Catch 22" or something else I have. I want to read all of them a lot and that anticipation has made it a difficult decision for me...darn it!

Silliest thing, but...

My pot roast came out great tonight!!!

Black friday I purchased a 5 qt name brand "Crock-Pot" for $13.00, big deal, and I'd been wanting. Used it for the first time tonight for hubby's birthday...I wanted to make him something we've never had/I've never done myself...maybe using the slow cooker is cheating...WHATEVER!!!! It was great, woke up a little early and cut up the potatos, onion and carrots, poured in cream of mushroom soup and milk, took the roast straight from the freezer, plopped it in and let it cook on slow for 8 hours...we didn't end up eating till six, but it was great cause after 8 hours, it just switched to warm...and it came out like my Aunt Sandy used to make em...it was so ONO (hawaiian for "good"). Hubby gave it raving reviews!

It's strange the little things that give me a sense of accomplishment :)

The Earthquake in Haiti

I like to think I am an empathetic person...I've always wanted to help people and be in a position to do so. When the devastating earthquake in Haiti hit...at first, it didn't register to me...it happened so far away and I hadn't seen any coverage on the event...I'd mostly just didn't watch any at first...I knew it would be so horrible and it would be such a downer...as horrible as that makes me sound, I didn't want to deal with it at first...last night, Jose and I watched a sort of telethon on Larry King and I could no longer ignore what was happening. Over 150,000 presumed dead, people still trapped under rubble, so many children orphaned, medicare is still so scarce...these people have probably been hit in the worst way in their history. Regardless of what's been done in the past and whatever bad/weird blood is between Haiti and the U.S...it is our responsibility as human beings to do what we can for them.

I've donated money to the American Red Cross through my ITunes account, Unicef is another reputable charity organization, unicefusa.org...the texting of HAITI to 90999 or UNICEF to 20222 is hit or miss...a few days ago I had a friend who said she did it and it worked, last night another friend said she did it and it didn't...so if those don't work please find the time to go online and donate...it doesn't have to be $100.00, if we all just donated $25.00, that would be more then enough for these people to get some relief.

Many other organizations are also going or are already in Haiti...there are so many needs...the animals, the babies who need formula...find your niche and do what you can...

My blog is public so it is possible someone may be viewing this even though I have no followers...if you are reading this...thank you...

Golden Globes and the Chargers

"Avatar" won best movie last night at the Golden Globes. WTF?!?!? I'll never deny that it's a visual accomplishment of epic proportions, but story wise it's pretty average. I don't understand how it was even nominated. Ugg!!!

Then to top off a night of huge disappointment, the Chargers lost last night. They didn't even lose because the NY Jets were better, they lost because a couple of guys couldn't resist showing their asses like they were five. That and Nate Kaeding...omg...he is paid to do ONE thing, and he mucked it up three times in a row. Cousin Cody says "well, the other guys are paid to score touchdowns and they didn't do that"...true, but they also have people trying to prevent them from doing so...there is no one preventing Kaeding from kicking a damn football in between two gold posts...the first time is forgivable...but three times in a row!!! Seriously!!!!

It's hard to watch your team shoot themselves in the foot like the Charger's did last night.

I may be able to get into more detail later, but I just woke up and I need to figure out if the commissary is open today or not.

Today is the beginning

Every January 1st...I make a new years resolution. Sometimes it's serious like to be happier and not let things get to me. Sometimes it's as frivolous as I want to lose weight. This year I made a goal for myself concerning my all time favorite habit...reading. I want to read 50 books in 2010. I never make goal for myself because I have always been afraid of failing...so I figure, if I don't set the bar high, I'll never fail...and in doing so, I feel like I've been failing my whole life...I never aspired to anything but what I needed to do in high school...I could never choose a major in college because I didn't want to do anything too hard. I didn't want to work too hard because I always buckle under certain pressure, and I become despondent and bitter, and then really never get anywhere.

I want this year to be different. I want to be different. I have a daughter now. I feel like I have to succeed for her...to show her how to do it so she will to. But more then that, I want to be happy with me. Even if it's as simple as aspiring to read a certain amount of books in a year...I will have accomplished something...if I can stick with it.

That's been a problem, sticking with things. Reading is a prime example. I love reading, I always have. When I am into books, I can read a number of books in a row like nothing, but I always hit a wall and just stop. Sometimes it's life getting in the way or I read all the books I wanted and haven't found anything else to suit my fancy...which results in me just stopping. As much as I like to read, I calculated I read on average of maybe 10 books a year. That's just sad for a self-proclaiming book nerd.

So with my daughter freaking out in the other room, tired and ready for a nap, I leave this confusing and maybe "no-point" post with the proclamation that I am changing the way I do things...starting with 50 books in 2010.